Should I kep trying to get a boyfriend, or wait until I have less trouble with my mental health?

Hi there, I want to let you know something, as I was reading your question, I was thinking your my daughter as she acts exactly the way you do!, she is 17 but has been like this since she was about 13 14 and as she has gotten older it has visibly gotten worse:( you say your mother is abusive, it depends what kind of abusive you mean?, do you mean shouting and swearing at you getting on your back constantly and her telling you what to do all the time? her saying she is sick to the back teeth of you? that kind of abusive? or is it some other kind of abuse, because if its the abuse I have mentioned, then I can see where your mum is coming from! I know its not what you want to hear, but I have found myself dealing with my daughter and I`ll tell you something its the hardest thing in the world because when she breaks down and starts crying as Im screaming in her face to tell me whats going on in her head as I cant take it anymore, she cries and says "I dont know" I really dont know whats wrong with me and it breaks my heart to se my child like that, and I get angry with myself for not being able to help her, and the worst thing is, I have tried getting help from her from all different sources and uts all a waste of time:( no-one seems interested in her welfare except me. I can honestly see exactly what you are going through, and I sometimes think that doctors just hand out anti depressants to anyone, technically in my eyes you are still a kid, not an adult, and to be handing you them without you first sending you to a psychologist (which they never seem willing to do) is wrong, you need to try and get someone to help you get to the root of the problem, I am now trying to help my daughter as much as I can, I get told to F**k off she hates me, get out her life, the abuse is terrible, and hurtful, then the next minute she will call me every 2 mins when she is out and she will be really nice and want me to call her back its like she is lost completely. To see any young adult be confused, and turn from a loving person one minute into the teenager from hell is heartbreaking for me, be it them being my child or someone elses child because deep down they are not intentionally acting in the way they do but people dont see it like that, people dont see the bigger picture professionals included and ts wrong. I think you should go back to your GP tell them when you book the appointment that you need a double appointment, tell them that you feel the tablets are not working and that you would like to know what alternative solution they can offer you, you have to tell them that mentally you would like an essment done by someone who specifically deals in mood changes so that you know exactly what could be wrong with you and why you are feeling like this, I have just managed to get my daughter to agree to see a GP as this weekend for me has been a nightmare, friday night phone calls all night, and couldnt get home I finally got her home and emotionally she was a mess confused and didnt know what was going on with her mental state, I fell into bed at 430am, last night the same, phone calls couldnt get home and I fell into bed this morning at 320 am she has me worried sick but the more fact of it is I am helpless to help her :( please dont feel alone the way you are feeling, my daughter had never had a bf she had the same as yourself kissed a guy only when she was drunk, drinking will make you both worse thats the thing, it will escalate your emotions and then leave you in a depressed state next day or for a few days afterwards, she has now met a female same age as her and now she thinks she is gay, she cant be 100% gay as she keeps telling me mum do u think he is tidy? lol so no she cannot be 100%gay or she wouldnt comment on guys, she maybe bi or she maybe all over the place like she normally is, she is clinging to this female she has been seeing and this female is treating my daughter like dirt, but she still goes back and its got to the point with them both that my daughters head is being messed up with that too:( and to be honest seeing her like that and watching her be treated like that makes me want to kick ten bells out this female, as I cant see my daughter sitting like this much longer, but Im wondering if she met anyone else, would she be the same with them? I really hope that you get advice and please please dont feel you are alone going through it either I dont know if you get my email when you reply but if you want to talk to someone then feel free to add me as maybe you can help me try and understand fully what it actually feels like and the emotions you go through and then maybe I can get some insight into helping my daughter through this illness that no-one sems to recognize too. Gilly x