He hurt me, but I didn't say no. Can I still be mad?

you said you "COULDN'T SAY NO" ... the truth is you CHOSE not to ... since you knew how his ual activities were, you can't complain afterwards if you WILLINGLY went along ... if you are not into the same ual lifestyle as your partner, you owe it to yourself (and him) to find someone else ... would you be having this same inner turmoil, if instead of during he abused you, he just slapped you around and punched you in the face at random times during the day???? ... ABUSE IS ABUSE ... there are agencies and groups that can help you get out of abusive relationships ... do it before you become another statistic